Could you have wrote Jared any more retarded at communicating his feelings for Jensen? Jared has known how he felt (even though confused;he knew he felt those feelings for Jensen) for like 7 out of 9 chapters now. And Jared saw and recognized the hurt and anguish in Jensen's eyes when he pulled away or wasn't telling Jensen the truth. You made the build up to this one moment of partial realization of their feelings way too long. The end of the 9th chapter and all we have right now is that Jensen isn't sorry that Jared kissed him.The actions they went through in previous chapters: eyes locking and not looking away, legs thrown over his hips, rubbing his nipple 3x and seeing Jensens pleasure and grateful that he was able to bring it to him, hard ons from sitting on Jensens crotch... With all the angsting and feeling and thinking Jared had been going through all these chapters; he would/should have stepped up to the plate over a month ago when they kissed in the car. because you write Jared as hating to see Jensen anguished, hurting, longing...so he would have wanted to stop hurting Jensen by doing that much sooner than now (going by the character traits you've written for Jared-self realization, recognized feelings, knew he was feeling for Jensen and not Dean, hated to see pain in Jensen's eyes...) So that was very frustrating for me.the chapters were a little on the short side; maybe if this was the 4th chapter and not the 9th, I wouldn't have been as frustrated. Other than that, I've enjoyed the story very much. The way you write the story; i can believe them falling for each other this way. The story is reading as Jared's point of view. Will we learn what Jensen's point of view during these past 9 chapters have been? Your very good writing about feelings and inner turmoil. I could feel what Jared was going through and kept on yelling at the computer screen "just tell him already!". That's why i'm frustrated; because Jared is frustrated. So i guess in a way, my complaining about how long it took to just recognize the kiss; is a compliment to your ability to evoke emotion from your readers. I look forward to reading what happens next. Thanks for taking the time and effort to write and share your story with us.